you are my sweetest downfall.

I’ve come to realize that you are a negative person in my life, and that’s all that you will ever be. And if I want to be happy, negative people don’t belong in my life and my thoughts. 

I may not have much people that are truly positive influences in my life, but from now on, they are who I will focus on. I won’t waste my time trying to understand why you are the way you are and why you treat me the way you do. The reality is that it doesn’t matter; you don’t like me and it’s your loss because I can be a damn good friend if someone gives me the chance to prove it. 

I have six people in the world I can count on for different reasons. They’re not always useful in every situation but they’ve brought me joy many times without ever intentionally hurting me.

Those are the people that matter. You don’t. Maybe one day when you stop focusing on only yourself, you’ll realize that. 

You don’t want to be friends with me. You have no interest in who I am, what I do, what I can bring to your life.
That’s fine, really! It’s not like I’ve been trying for a while to get through to you.
I’ll just stop, though. Like, what’s the point in continuously hurting myself if it’s not bringing you any benefit either?
There just isn’t any. So don’t worry, I won’t try texting or talking to you any more :)
If you’re suddenly interested in trying just as much as I have been, let me know. I’ll see how I feel. 

I’m done. I’m done with people who don’t try to keep me in their lives. There’s way too many of them, and I’m tired of being the one who always tries to make the effort. To speak first, initiate conversation. I reach out to help and console and distract, but little return it. 
I guess I’ll just let people speak first, for once. The people who actually do that already are so rare. I don’t get it, I don’t get what’s wrong with me.